Wednesday, October 28, 2009
My parents let go of all my kittens yesterday afternoon.I was kind of expecting it so i wasnt really affected by it initially.
But it was terribly heartbreaking when i saw 1 kitten hiding under a stairway, looking so scared and all alone.i had to literally crawl under the stairway just to get to it.and as i was carrying him and looking for the rest of the pack he was meowing so loud out of fright to the unknown outside environment.the whole pack was born and bred in the house.they've never gone out for more than an hr or two.my heart broke thinking abt how for the rest of their lives now they'll be living on their own.
Monster found 5 more sitting together at another place nearby.the moment this one kitten saw the rest of the pack he automatically stop meowing at the familiar scent of his siblings.even more heartbreaking is the fact that they recognise monster and me.when we sat with them they started eating the food that has been infront of them all the while.obviously it hasnt been touched.they must have been too scared too eat.and 2 wont even eat until monster and me feed them with our hands.at home they would usually rush for their share of the food and sometimes they would even get angry at each other if another kitten eats one's share of the food.
After eating some of them sat in between our legs and refused to sit somewhere else.i felt so reluctant to leave them.they were constantly on their guard and was cringing at every sound they hear and everything they saw.
After feeding 6 of the kittens we suddenly heard the meow(s) of the 2 remaining kittens.they were hiding in the bushes behind where we were sitting.when i took them out they were covered in red ants.maybe meowing in fear and pain.after i cleared all the red ants from their body monster bought food for them.i could tell that they were really hungry.poor little kittens...
When monster and i were around some of them were playing with us.im not sure if they could do that when we are gone...
Since it was getting late monster and i decided to look for a box so that they could sleep and hide inside, away from the noise and sight of the outside that they are so not use to.
When we brought the box to them they immediately helped themselves and when into the box.fear striking on their faces.when they were outside i could see that it was difficult for them to sleep.their eyes kept shutting but they kept forcing their eyes open lest the threathening unknown.but when in the box some immediately fall asleep cuddling the other kittens.
After we labelled the box, so that people wont mistake it for trash, and ensure that they wont leave the box we left them.....
Now i cant stop thingking abt them.it rained a moment ago and i wonder if their box is wet.I woke at 5 in the morning and couldnt sleep well since.there's just too much to think abt.i havent felt this sad for a very very very long time.i didnt think i'd be so attached to these kittens.i even skipped my morning class and came sch late because all these just spoils my mood.fcking hell...and it doesnt help that i have a mock maths test later.
I dont know who to blame for all these.Im not sure if it was my fault for wanting to bring the parents of these kittens hm, when i found them at a trash place a yr and a half ago, or blame my dad for using the cash that mom saved to send the 1st 5 cats for sterilization.gosh!i just feel like im in a mess right now.oh top of the h1 maths paper that is coming soon i have so many other undesirable things happening.gosh...
P.S: Thank you very much to all who gave hope and offered a home to my kittens and then declined.You guys are a load of help!*roll eyes*
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