thats how inferior i feel.suddenly all that was planned and said didnt matter.its all new now.new plans.new place.new people.way out of my comfort zone.

ive been in my comfort zone for too long.ive been there from the start.and being forced to get out of it only now has proven to be very reluctant.but then again..who am i to have any say?im being dragged out of my comfort zone and fighting back would only be a vain effort.

as much as i know that everybody has gd intentions at heart.i just cant get myself to fit in and feel comfortable.it feels like im not gd enough.everybody is up there.and i feel like im no where near where they are.and it doesnt help to have one who talks like one's all that and have all the skills in the world.not everybody has that advantage do they.

but maybe just maybe i need a little bit more time.or a little bit more space to relax and open up a tiny bit to the new environment.however so..i doubt having to work with these new people for a few weeks would provide me enough of the time and space i need.gosh!

on the brighter side there has been some kind of encouragement and trying to make me feel better.even though it doesnt quite seem to work...yet!i think.i dont know.i guess i should just do what ive been doin everytime im thrown into a new environment..go with the flow.

i cant be arsed to dwell anymore on this matter.and besides its only for a couple of weeks.i should be able to sustain that long.

exams are still on going.3 more papers to go.

fasting month has been great.im still waiting for the chance to go geylang and eat yummy dengdengs.somehow fasting month wont feel complete without a visit to geylang.well happy fasting all.

and i miss wasted kids.