Isnt it aggravating how feelings just creep up to you?one moment you think all is well and things are neutral.but the next moment you feel so awed that you'll hope for more.then you do some thinking and figure that things should just stay the way it is.neutral.confusing??as much as it confuses anybody who reads this.it confuses me more.but ofcourse i shall stick to being neutral.as hidayah told me this afternoon im liberated.i'd like to be able to do things without anybody standing in the way.afterall this is my life.now shaik will tell me that im over-thinking.and so i shall just leave it to this.what am i ranting about??im not quite certain myself.well then...