Wednesday, October 28, 2009
My parents let go of all my kittens yesterday afternoon.I was kind of expecting it so i wasnt really affected by it initially.
But it was terribly heartbreaking when i saw 1 kitten hiding under a stairway, looking so scared and all alone.i had to literally crawl under the stairway just to get to it.and as i was carrying him and looking for the rest of the pack he was meowing so loud out of fright to the unknown outside environment.the whole pack was born and bred in the house.they've never gone out for more than an hr or two.my heart broke thinking abt how for the rest of their lives now they'll be living on their own.
Monster found 5 more sitting together at another place nearby.the moment this one kitten saw the rest of the pack he automatically stop meowing at the familiar scent of his siblings.even more heartbreaking is the fact that they recognise monster and me.when we sat with them they started eating the food that has been infront of them all the while.obviously it hasnt been touched.they must have been too scared too eat.and 2 wont even eat until monster and me feed them with our hands.at home they would usually rush for their share of the food and sometimes they would even get angry at each other if another kitten eats one's share of the food.
After eating some of them sat in between our legs and refused to sit somewhere else.i felt so reluctant to leave them.they were constantly on their guard and was cringing at every sound they hear and everything they saw.
After feeding 6 of the kittens we suddenly heard the meow(s) of the 2 remaining kittens.they were hiding in the bushes behind where we were sitting.when i took them out they were covered in red ants.maybe meowing in fear and pain.after i cleared all the red ants from their body monster bought food for them.i could tell that they were really hungry.poor little kittens...
When monster and i were around some of them were playing with us.im not sure if they could do that when we are gone...
Since it was getting late monster and i decided to look for a box so that they could sleep and hide inside, away from the noise and sight of the outside that they are so not use to.
When we brought the box to them they immediately helped themselves and when into the box.fear striking on their faces.when they were outside i could see that it was difficult for them to sleep.their eyes kept shutting but they kept forcing their eyes open lest the threathening unknown.but when in the box some immediately fall asleep cuddling the other kittens.
After we labelled the box, so that people wont mistake it for trash, and ensure that they wont leave the box we left them.....
Now i cant stop thingking abt them.it rained a moment ago and i wonder if their box is wet.I woke at 5 in the morning and couldnt sleep well since.there's just too much to think abt.i havent felt this sad for a very very very long time.i didnt think i'd be so attached to these kittens.i even skipped my morning class and came sch late because all these just spoils my mood.fcking hell...and it doesnt help that i have a mock maths test later.
I dont know who to blame for all these.Im not sure if it was my fault for wanting to bring the parents of these kittens hm, when i found them at a trash place a yr and a half ago, or blame my dad for using the cash that mom saved to send the 1st 5 cats for sterilization.gosh!i just feel like im in a mess right now.oh top of the h1 maths paper that is coming soon i have so many other undesirable things happening.gosh...
P.S: Thank you very much to all who gave hope and offered a home to my kittens and then declined.You guys are a load of help!*roll eyes*
11:52 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
It was only yesterday that i said my prayers for Ridzman's sister hoping that god would improve her condition.but sadly it was also yesterday, a couple of hrs after i updated, that i found out she has passed on.it was devastating to know how one's life can be loss at such a young age and leaving a family behind at that.Shows how much we should cherish life while we still have it and in the course of it constantly keep ourselves close to god ao that when the time comes, no matter how young or old our age, we would be prepared to face the other world.
My deepest Condolences to Ridzman n his Family
i sympathize with your loss and i hope ur family would be strong enough to face this.
Inalillah.
2:46 PM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Yesterday Monster and I went to southern ridges for a long long walk.i would call it an adventure because really how many times do we (the youths) engage ourselves in such close-to-nature activities.from the likes of my social group i can say not so often.heh.no offence to anybody though.
And yesterday was FCKING-AWESOME.the weather was really nice and windy, it was drizzling a little bit but that wasnt a problem at all, so that makes the journey more enjoyable because we dont have to tolerate the hot sun and the humidity.gosh..what more can i say it was just awesome,yesterday.the weather, the view (most of it), the atmosphere, the company i had was perfect for such a long walk.i am very contented!:)
the rest of this post will be based on these pictures,
this is where we started off.im not sure where we are actually its somewhere around river valley sec sch i think.all the pictures are taken by our handphones because the camera batt just went dead after like 2 pathetic pictures.stupid!
but thank god for the camera phones!dont you just love technology.hahah!
here you can see part of the trail that we followed.it looks like its high up but when we were there the ground wasnt really that far down.the centre pic is a pic from how high we were to the ground.it was really scary at 1st to see the ground from that height but that was as high as i could see the ground because later in the trail ,we were high up, but it was like a hilltop so the ground wasnt far from us.we were just high above land like that u know...
i hope u get what im trying to say because the rm that im in is a little too noisy for me to be able to put my thoughts into proper sentences.
while walking we saw a bird's house.i wonder who went all the way up to the tree to place the bird's house there.the birds cant possibly be the ones who built it right...and it was reall high up the tree, so i think that was cool.the next picture is the trail we've followed so far.it wasnt that far really,maybe about 1km plus-plus...
oh!while we were walking there was alot of notes along the way abt the plants that grow in the area.and one of it was this pitcher plant.monster was really excited abt it and he wanted so much to see the plant but sadly we couldnt find it among all the other plants and trees.poor monster, he was really disappointed.maybe next time love..
by this time we were famished!our stomachs were alr growling.and the 1st thing i thought of when we saw this resting point was STOP AND EAT!!!!!
we brought along sandwiches salad and cereals to eat.before heading off for the trip monster came over my place to prepare the food together.that was really a really fun prelude to the trip.but i swear i got soo excited that i was rushing a little and that pissed monster off a little.but it was all cool cuz i couldnt be bothered with petty arguments, ive waited too long for this trip to actualise.hahah!luckily for me monster isnt at all petty. *huge smile*
then while walking after our short late lunch break we came across this place uphill the track.it was beautiful,
there was only this one hut that was available for people to sit.but why sit when we can cam whore right.
here are just a few of the pictures that we took.i'll upload the rest on facebook.so if anybody is interested to see just check out fb!
then we walked pass this park place and we saw a few monkeys there.it was cool to be able to see wild monkeys running around and not in the zoo.
we also saw the monkeys looking for fleas in each others fur and eating them!its like one big happy monkey family.monster and i assumed that the one bending over is the male behind it is the female and the one one the male's back is the young.hah!we might not be right..but who cares.hahah!
while continuing the trail monster pinted out to me the view of the city.i think its awesome that we could be able to see so far from the area.but then again its likely that we can have this view since we're so high up.
so the next stop was one i had been looking forward to, henderson wave.my sister has talked abt it many times and ive seen the place on tv more times than my sis has talked abt it.honestly i was abit disappointed with the place because it looked more beautiful on tv but part of the view made up for it because when i looked straight all i could see was green from the trees.but too bad the left and the right was a view of buildings and the telok belange estate.
nonetheless it was really awesome there.and we also saw a small group of friends celebrating a birthday.i think it was really nice to celebrate the occassion there with only a few really close friends.
so here we are...
this is the view.i love the sea view especially i just think seaviews are very serene and calming.its a nice addition to the already very awesome hilltop atmosphere.
our next stop was this pirate ship like place where we saw this pond with many many tortoise in it.we didnt spend much time there because there were many pple and a little noisy.so we went ahead to the last part of the trail leading to harbour front mrt station.
this is the marang trail, the last part of the trail.there were ALOT (!!!!!) of steps down.and on our way we saw this very private bungalow amongst the forest.i thought that was super (!!!!!) awesome!!really private and i bet really expensive.
and i wonder how the residents there go home because i dont see any roads from outside that leads into the house.but that just makes it extra cool.
Finally, this was the end of the road.i cant explain how satisfied i feel after the whole trip.we took about 3hrs to finish walking abt 5km up and down the hill.i swear my legs were trembling when were taking these pictures.
all in all the day was just utterly awesome filled with laughters adn excitement.no doubt that it was tiring but the fun kept us goin and even after walking the trail we didnt really feel the tiredness cuz we were still having fun.
Regards to Ridzman n his Family,
his sister is in the hospital now and in critical condition.
Monster and I will pray for her's and the family's well-being.
Insya'allah.
